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***** I am SOOOO Done *****

Lastnight I got to experience a screaming, crying baby for over 2 hours. I'm not being mean about it and wasn't upset or anything but it was the confirmation I needed from the Sweet Baby J that my birthing days are over and I can thank Him for that (Jesus not Luke) LOL!

Nobody realizes just how often young, sexy, awesome Mothers get asked "Sooo, when you guys gonna have another?" Well, let me tell you: it's too often. What's it matter? What's it any of your business? Why do you care? It's like it's just something to talk about; but that's why I thought people talked about the weather...

Anywho, there is only a few answers that anybody could give (all of which are super personal and shouldn't be shared with anyone but...) they are: A. Yes we are trying, but failing miserably. B. No we aren't trying anymore b/c I had my cervix removed. And 3. Screw off you nosey jerk.

But when family and true friends ask me, it's cool b/c they like really care about me and are genuinely curious. I usually quickly answer how I'm good and don't "want" more. There was a point in mid-2007 that I thought I really wanted another one and Brian did not. He had his two kids and I didn't like that answer. WHAT ABOUT ME?! I WANT 2 KIDS! Little did I know that God has perfect timing and His plans for the next two years from there wouldn't have worked with a newborn. And now I do have 2 kids :)

But lastnight I was thanking my malfunctioning ovaries that Emily is 14 and Will's gonna be 5 in 3 weeks. I literally told Will to get in bed with a book and I read it to him and he went to sleep, the whole night through, everynight, everytime (oh except when the little mole comes digging in our bed at 3 am, trying to sleep with us) And he doesn't need to have 5 poopy diapers changed in 5 hours. I could nap today, to make up for lastnight, while he was awake. Another awesome part about having a child that can talk more than gibberish is: he asks to go to McDonald's often which means I don't have to cook. Go Older, Demanding, Mind-of-Your-Own, lower maintenance Kids!

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