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Blasphemous Memorial Day

Instead of thinking about soldiers & wars & sacrifice yesterday, I thought a lot about myself... sort of remembering me & what I like. I know it's self-centered... why do you think I didn't broadcast it to all the family I was around?! Also, my son's preschool marched in the parade & there was A LOT of waiting around for the line-up so my mind wondered. EXCUSE ME!

I like a quilt on my feet when they are hot. Something about the soft, cool fabric makes me smile.

I hate when a good book ends. Who knows when I will find the next one?? It could be DAYS!

I love taking pictures with my new sLr camera. But I'm afraid others won't like them b/c ultimately I would like to sell them.

I giggle inside when I hear my son laugh, like really belly-laugh.

I could veg-out in front of the tv constantly, if everyone would let me :)

I don't like being hot and sweating...so having a pool now is wonderful! I feel like I might actually enjoy summer this year.

I just realized I like "baby moons" & if you don't know what those are, don't feel left out. I didn't know either until Sunday.

When I was younger, I thought when I turned 30, I'd have my shit together.

Sometimes, I picture myself still in the Army, thinking about what I would be doing & I cringe. (worst time in my life!)

I like the veggies & dip at cook-outs more than anything else.

I sprinkle salt in my beer.

I want more tattoos but am nervous about my skin's reaction...last time I got a rash. Hope my dreams of having a sleeve won't be dashed.

I can't stand injustice, unfairness & people who betray me. Where's the trust?!

I like the drive-in movie theater better than watching movies at home.

I cannot take the feel of OFF on my skin for very long... I'd rather just go inside when the skeeters come out.

I love napping on rainy days the best... just wish I could figure out how to do that AND have the windows open...

I am starting to like BLACK coffee better than my mocha-choka-latte-yayas.

I have some color to my pastey-white skin for the 3rd time in my life... 1. Prom Senoir Year I tanned. 2. Worked at Fun Tan for awhile before I got married & earned free tanning. 3. Got a pool recently & spend all my time in it.

I like fountain pop better than any other.

And now Will wants milk so this is to be continued...

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  1. AnonymousJune 1, 2010 at 9:22 PM

    Fountain pop is my fave! When I was young I used to try to figure out what year it would be when I was 30..40...and so on. Now I don't even want to THINK about it. Teehheee.

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  2. KenjLovesSweatshirtsJune 5, 2010 at 5:55 PM

    having your shit together is for the birds and GOd :)

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