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I am sitting here after a 3 HOUR! nap reading the blogs I follow and ALL 3 of my closest peeps' blogs were about their kid. 2 of which were about 17-18 month old kids who were in the stages of jibberish blabbering...and I got to thinking...I TOTALLY MISS THAT STAGE! I wasn't blogging at that time in Will's life so I can't really remember the sound of his jibberish without bustin' out the video tapes. These 2 blogs were letters directly to their children...maybe I don't do that b/c Will and I CAN actually have a conversation and by the time I sit down to blog I am exhausted from numerous talks with him. But I'm gonna give it a whirl!


Dear Will,

Right now MawMaw just got up from a 3 hour nap and you were so quiet and just played on the computer the entire time. I only heard you make a few sounds which included things blowing up and guns shooting but it was all virtual and no one really got hurt. I clapped loudly when I woke up so you would come in and check out what that noise was and BOO! I sat up and screamed and you screamed too and then you took my phone and ran back to the computer laughing all the way. I made you a peanut butter and jelly and you didn't want that. You said you were ready for dessert. Where do these lines come from anyway?? iCarly? Fanboy & ChumChum? Spongebob? Probably. Anywho, you ate it on your tray in front of Dora and then proceeded to throw your tray around the living room and then hide behind it like some Army soldier and then popped up periodically to shoot me. Now you are playing your new Cars game on Playstation. I am amazed at how you can turn on all the right buttons and channels and hook up everything and it works. I get confused if I am at someone's house and they have more than 2 remotes.

At this stage in your life you are obsessed with cellphones and hotwheels and you WANT everything. I have even stopped taking you grocery shopping with me to avoid the meltdowns and potential beatings that may occur from asking for everything. But, honestly, I don't think you even notice that it's been WEEKS since you've been to "Wool-mart." Also, you have started saying "I'm bored" at random times and everytime you say it, it totally throws me off guard. What 4 y.o. Says That!! Oh and you are NOT liking your room at all. You want an orange one. It doesn't surprise me b/c your favorite color is orange but...I really hate painting, but will do it for you Stinky. You cry everynight and want me to sleep with you but you refuse to nap with me when it means daylights-a-burnin'. Although I know this is a terrible habit to get into, I can't help eating it up b/c I seriously have to force you to hug me or give me smooches; but, something magical happens when the sun goes down...I don't turn from this princess to an ogre or anything but you, all the sudden, get all schmoopy on me and I LOVE IT!

Well, right now, you informed me that you are "bored" which I know is a lie but I do feel sorta guilty being on the computer any longer...actually, I need to get off here b/c you have stolen my "lenses" and I'm getting a headache. But I love you and all your selfishness, violence and independence. I just hope you remember as you grow older that you shouldn't bite the hand that feeds you or steal their glasses. Love, MawMaw

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  1. MelissaJanuary 27, 2010 at 10:24 PM

    good letter. thanks for letting us in :)

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  2. KenjLovesSweatshirtsJanuary 30, 2010 at 3:18 PM

    LOL
    I love da William.
    He's so funny, I can't stand it. He really is a good boy and so smart...but yes he WANTS everything:) I love how you threw in HOW he talks and pronounces stuff like WoolMart!! :)

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