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This Can't Be Happening!

Will is already old enough to play tee ball!! OH MY WORD!! I remember "walkin' the mile" while in labor, secretly wishing that it was over and done with and my child was already walking and talking and no late nights and loss of sleep would be suffered. I regret that now b/c it happened. He's walking: check. He's talking: check. He's gonna be 5 in less than 2 months: check. Just signed him up for tee ball: double check. This just can't be happening. The time went too fast. I'm not ready to give him up for school either. That's like 6 whole hours in the day that he will be somewhere else, like not with me, like: uncheck! I don't likey. I supposed I could homeschool him??....but let's not fool anyone here...I love my son but I don't want to be the sole person responsible for his smarts and knowledge and stuff like that. I only have an associates degree in general studies...C'MON PEOPLE!
I am also realizing that with Will being gone 6 hours a day...I have to think and its decisions, decisions time. Do I work during that time or finish school? I'm really leaning toward the working thing right now (and I KNOW my hubby is too) but I keep having this nagging feeling that if I "just work a dead-end job" I would be settling. IDK. I know that going to school costs money and I totally don't particularly enjoy homework but it would all be worth it in the end right?? I mean right?? I'm torn. Oh Mamma, tell me what to do with my life--Shelbie from Steel Magnolias

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  1. KenjLovesSweatshirtsFebruary 2, 2010 at 3:29 PM

    awww makes me wanna cry. my baby nephew da william is going to be 5 AND playing T-Ball!! WOW

    OOOOOO decisions decisions decisions...pray pray pray about what to do. Dead End Jobs offer money and part time work(like VK does). BUT then getting a degree could offer you freedom LATER on...hmmmmm...glad you threw in a movie quote. thass niiice:)

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  2. AnonymousFebruary 2, 2010 at 5:25 PM

    "That's like 6 whole hours in the day he will be with someone else, like not with me, like: uncheck" LOL!!!

    That made me laugh outloud. Yes, it is sad!

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  3. MelissaFebruary 3, 2010 at 1:19 AM

    school schmool... doesn't gaurantee anything.... just delays work

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